I'm Every Where, and I'd Like To Share!

So, as booted up Fire-Fox today, I noticed how many ways there are to find me On-Line. The fact that I have two blogs is kinda odd for me...I just never seemed like the person who would take time to talk about myself here on the Inter-Web. But here I am, typing in a program that can post to multiple Blogs at once. Any who, I guess I'll get to listing off my many connections!

Face Book - You'll find me there under Bob Krause, I'm starting to clean it up a bit but it's still a little cluttered. I just want everything that junks up my name, out of there.

My Space - There is a page that I have there, under BigBouncingBob, but i haven't dose anything with that page in at least two years...It's really bad looking, I need to clean it up at some point.

Blogger - It was my first blog found under BigBouncingBob, it has a little more here and there, but now that I've found this neat program I'm posting the same content to both blogs.

LiveJournal - At first I avoided LJ all together, I didn't want any of the drama that seems to brew there...but I gave in and ~poof~ here it is, found under WHY the Dragon.

Orkut - Who could forget Orkut? Such a silly little social site where it seems like EVERYONE is from Brazil! (Bob Krause)

There are also other instances of my presence in the grate WWW...like my art pages;

Fur Affinity - The primary hub of my artwork...actually, the only one at the moment. But any-who, you can find me there under William Yamagoshi though I am trying to get it changed to my new found artist identity, WHY the Dragon. (A play on my initials as a furry, William Heyer Yamagoshi).

Yiff Star - Yes, I'm on YS as well...though, I haven't posted anything there, you can find me as WHY the Dragon.

Anthor Star - Of course if I'm on one, I'll be on the other...WHY the Dragon.

And just to squeeze a few on the end:

Pounced - Because it's always nice to have your fingers in all the pies, Nooo...not like that! (dirty, dirty mind!) There I be under William Yamagoshi, just chillin' my heart there.

LAFF wiki - Just so there's a little more of me out there for all of you, I posted it on my local furry group's wiki as me, William Yamagoshi.

Pandora - Where I go to catch a crazy string of sweet songs, just what I was lookin' for...under, Bob K. WooT, yeah! ROCK \m/ >..< \m/

Well that's it for me...got other things to do than this, so...

--Peace! I/O

How Am I? ~Chuckels~ Well...

A step in my shoes is like the weight of the world, except the world is a tiny ass pebble that's big enough to annoy you but small enough you don't want to do anything until you foot is raw and bleeding. To me, life ain't no thing, but that might be the problem, I just glide on by to the next day with out even thinking twice. I do my best not to stand out, but I don't want to fade away...I try not to dwell in the past, but I try and learn from my mistakes. I am the forever existing void...the null-living...I exist for that one reason, to exist. Life gets so pointless when you know there's nothing to it...but not pointless enough that I would try and speed up the inevitable. (Yes I just hinted at my suicidal thoughts that brood in me, but, like the rest of my thoughts...will never amount to anything)

Sometimes I just get tired of it, the nothingness...the void...people say I should do something, anything...and it's not like I don't say the same thing. I want to do something...anything to kill the boredom, the wait...till, the end...but even then, nothingness. I drown quietly in my own sorrow of, not even failure...one would have to at least try once to fail...I don't even get that far. Some wonder why...why all this sorrow in someone who, normally you would think would be happy and such. One who is provided, not the best but adequate conditions to be brought up in...everything provided, nothing to worry about...just sit over there and do your one thing. School, school...SCHOOL! Sure, what ever...I never cared that much, well...I wouldn't say that. I liked learning and shit, but the applying part...never my bit. Course, when ever I showed interests in things...no one ever paid attention. It was more of, "good for you, look at what you've found interest in. let's see where you go with that," and then...poof, gone...like I'm a ghost. A kid can only take so much till he feels...just, nothing for anything anymore.

Sure, here I am now...when I'm with people, I play it like there's nothing going on...though there are the few that feel there is. I just don't feel like killing the mood with my sob story all the time. I've gotten over it, time and time again...I can do it just one more time. I share what I need to with those who really want to know, but the rest of the time...let me just have what fun I can. I know what some of you keep saying, "why don't you do somethin, just move" or "get on with your life, you don't need him" and I feel you, I do. I just hate that man, yes...I'm saying it loud for the masses, I HATE MY MOTHER F-KING FATHER!!! He seems to be the source of all my pain...I mean, sure he's done a lot for me since forever, but the negative out weighs the positive...and not just the big things here and there, it's the piles and piles of little things too! If you met him the first time you would be all, "oh, he's not that bad at all. He's fun and stuff and everything." but after just a few more visits you will turn. You'll turn like the few friends I did chance and bring over to hang out...and the you shall see what I have seen for two decades!

Of course I can't blame it completely on him...it was his upbringing that made him that way. No really, ask him...he'll tell you the same exact thing. But yes, even I can't hold it against the man I hate and despise...who I whish would say that one, more, thing...that will just...push me over the, edge...and ~snap~ STOMP HIS ASS TO A PULP! But with all silliness aside, you all know that I would never do that...I just can't, no matter how much he does to agitate me, no matter how much I brood over all that he's done...I just couldn't. It's not in my nature to do so...to do any ill will or harm to anyone, unless they need it...to teach them a lesson, about how to treat people with respect and such...or at least not stomp there ass if they cross you line. Ya know what I'm saying?

I guess I could just say, "for get this bull," and slide my finger to the delete button, but I won't. Thing's need to be said...out there, I actually don't care who reads it all. If you show some interest, well...good for you. Ya know, you've always had a heart...and you lion, you've always been brave deep down inside. No matter what crap I've been through, I never bring it to the table...that's why I'm almost always a pleasant person to be with and around. There's just too much drama in the world already, I'm not going to make it someone else's problem, I can deal with it my self...I just need an out put of some sort (kind of like this) or else I'll be up all night (kind of like now) not being able to sleep because of having to deal with him...again, day after day.

But other than that...I'm doing just fine and dandy, how 'bout you? ^..^

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Peace Out! I/O

Up To Now

Well, well, well...it's been quite awhile, but HEY! I'm still alive, that counts for something, eh? Well, even so there's not much to talk about just catch-up stuff since the last post, other than that it's been quite bland, unexciting, disappointing, and most of all boring! So, the same old, same old. So last time i kinda lashed out, well it's expected in the kinda life I live and every now and then I just have to let lose somehow, but it can be assured that I did not do anything rash. I can keep my cool under pressure of every intensity, but let's stop that and get the ball rolling.

Let me just say that this year, the school year that is, was a complete waste of time. For some bizarre reason i thought i could make it through another year at Northside, complete my supper senior year there and blow that Popsicle stand. Oh, FUCK NO...as expected I blew the first half right out of the watter, but some how i got away with two half credits. But even with that I said, 'Fuck this', and got myself out of there...but do not fret, i set myself up at Truman. Gona push myself through this program and, get this...I'm still going to get a Northside diploma, don't know how but I'm not going around asking questions. So, yeah...I'll be out of there by June, probably take a little time off then...WORK, all day and night till I fall over!

So now going back a little bit, finally went to my first Furry Convention...well it was nice, had a few people there that I knew that made it what it was, and again I thank them for that. But all around, I truly dig it all and hopefully I'll be heading to many, many more. In other news, I've been finding more and more furry friends...though I only see them every now and then, I always have a great time! Every now and then things get exciting, and that's always good...but it's always nice just to be around 'em, they just re-energizes me and I LOVE IT!

And so, in the time to come, I'll be kicking myself into gear about the whole school thing...if I'm going to be doing anything anytime soon I need to get that diploma. After that, for the summer at least, I'm gona be working my ass off with my brother pulling in as much scratch as we can. When Autumn comes, who knows...I might still be in Chi-Town working or hittin' up the College scene, or moving out to Ohio with my bro-ham doing the College thing. Or even moving out to West Virginia to bunk with my mate, figure things out there...school?..work?..who knows?

Well that's what be with me, Up To Now! I'll catch you all on the flip side,
Peace Out! I/O

B.

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Now playing: Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood (rmix)
via FoxyTunes

Brake Down - Freak Out! That's Me...

OK So This Is How It Goes....I Talk, You Listen. It Works For Me, It'll Work For You...Hopefully. Well...that's not how i wanted it to go, all I need is a peaceful place ware I can post my mind out on the net...why? Well I've been askin' myself the same thing for quite awhile...all I came up with is that cause I'm not much of a talker, the only way for me to be heard is to type what i say, and i really don't care what i say or who reads it. If you have, good for you...now you know a little bit more about me. If you don't, feck off...I never said I needed you anyways. So lets start with the basics...although i already posted and you might have already pieced something together your self, I'm goin' to shatter that image.

Lets first start of with this page...not what i really want but close enough, I'll go with the flow. On the left the posts and such, on the right the nave, Yahoo! avatar, a MeeBo IM window (talk to me when I'm on) and the Frapper Map (something new I'm trying out). Below that it's all crap! OK that's My Blog Spot...Now I also have a web page, on a free host (what you think I'm made of money?!) check it out some time http://g.iasphost.com/gamegod246 yeah it's a little odd and a piece of shite site but I'm workin on something better as we speak....when I'll be done who knows.

Enough of that shit...now it's my turn:
- I'm currently 18 (19 in June)
- was born June 1988 in Washington dc and moved around for the first few years of my life with my folks.
- i now reside in Chicago, IL been here 16-17 years, it's an OK place but it's boring as shit on a stick! I really want to got out of this hell-hole, too many memories and so-forth...blehg!
- moved around bout 5 times since i got here, but never really left the general area of Lincoln square.
- still in HS but I'm not complaining...some sweet digs i got here at Northside.
- I'm a very techie guy...i could never go a week without online access and a month with out an actual computer.
- I'm Bi...just a fact nothing made it happen or caused it, i wasn't born that way it's just that i have a general liking of everyone; race, creed, color or sex. though i do see why some hate a particular feature, i don't see why they think everyone of that particular feature is exactly the same.
- I'm also single, currently...though I'm not really looking for someone at the moment i do like being around others that i could get into...intellectually and so-on.
- the majority of movies and songs are quite good...though I myself am getting quite tired of the American remakes, formulaic plots and mushy happy endings. as for songs everything is in my favour minus death metal, grunge, most resent country and reggaeton.
- I have a very creative spark...i love to make things, especially for others....happiness of other is nice.
- I've been getting into stage-hand stuff...creating sets, lighting sceams and sound...boarding..? anything that i can put myself into and leave a little piece of me with it.
- on that note, i like to write; poems, stories, songs, characters, etc. well i rarely write them down but i do like thinking them all up. i like how art can be so general and basic yet at the same time mean something bigger then itself.
- I am an open minded person...but even so i can only take so much of somthing before i get tired of hearing it over and over...and when i go and shut you down on somthing don't come sayin' i thought you were an open minded person, hipocit! ...no that's not it, i'm open to things i haven't experienced or don't know much of...but i can still have my own opinion...and if you come trying to chance it...bam!
- i'm not a religious person...at all, don't get me wrong but i'll respect your belifes but just about every religion i know of, and others i don't, are always after the same thing and promis the same thing...yet they always fight...and every time i look into one religion i find out that it's like that one wich is like this one...and so-on. just leave me out of the mess, i'll do my own thing.
- i have a few things that i'm realy into...books, music, IM, and furries...now if you don't know what a furry is you could google it or somthing, if you do..good for you! so my main and most used fursona is William Yamagoshi he's a blood red dragon, sage green hair, cristal blue eyes, bout 7' 3", no horns, has some shape shifting abilities (like changing size, adding and removing wings basic stuff), handy with any kinda weapon and a fire breather (of cource).
- there is one last thing that i will share with y'all... i do have a small case of mpd (multipul personality disorder) they help me deal with the crap i put up with all there years. curently none have taken over or anything like that...but a few of them scare me. i know what they think about and it's not pritty...william is one of the, at first i thought he was kinda like me..but not even close. he's been slowly taking over the others one by one...now i don't know all of them, or how meny there are but i can feel them vanish and more of him every day. it's quite odd...


oh well that's it...well, for now. i really can't think about it much anymore, it's the end of this post...bye bye, so long, fare well...and so-on!

Peace Out I/O