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So, once again...here I be, stuck in the mud...getting nowhere fast, just smoozing along...and I'm sick and tired of it, but what ever. V..V Some people, like myself, are just not motivated by anything...but it's not that we're lazy or anything, there's just a disconnect somewhere in the wiring. >..< size="1">[add dramatic echo here] "Laziest Person In The World", but even he calls me lazy. He said he was never motivated enough to do anything him self, and if he were to get anywhere in like there would have to be someone to tell him what to do; and so...he decided to join the Army.
I just said "No" right off the bat...no matter what, that is not the way...well, maybe after a few years with Obama, but during a war?!? Forget that! Mmm, but there has to be something about it that make people think it's the best move for me. Everyone keeps bringing it up, even my supper liberal Bobba [grandma] and aunt. I think I just need to find the right environment, and...zoom!...I'll be off like a rocket.
But, where I am now...erf, it just makes me depressed sometimes when I step back and look at my situation, and when I get depressed...forget it, I'm out for the day. Well...not completely out, there is one thing that will pull me out of the dumps no matter what. ^..^ An unexpected call from ~sighs~ HIM...~drools~. I speak of my one and only, Zack! I'm not sure if I brought him up in my previous posts, but...~blushes~ he's my boyfriend...well, that's more of a temporary title. Hopefully, sometime soon, there will be something a little more permanent...I just don't know which of us is going to make the move. I've planned out that moment, over and over...but, I be just a little too shy and cautious, but he seems to be more outgoing in all areas.
Well...I don't know, there's been a lot to think of on my end...not just with him, but with other things as well. School, work...just life in general, all just one big...Blah! I wish I had some better direction...not just motivation, I have so many things that would motivate anyone...it's just that final push that will set me off and that's it. If I could just get that push, I'd be set for life...and even the next...just a big Whoooosh...and I'm gone.