Another Step Complete

Well, got another brick in the wall secured in place...finally got the High School Diploma knocked out of the way, and it only took me five years to do it. (gerf) >..< Can't complain, but now it's the hard part...what now? No ones talked about it, well I mean there have been people who've given me a pitch...and I've heard them all, but what about em? This place, that place...who's accredited where...cost, programs. Maybe if I knew what i was doing, then I could worry about all that...but see, no ones ever helped in that area. I've got an idea, but I have no clue where to search or what program I need to do what I want to do. That's why I don't feel like doing anything in that area, I hate stabbing in the dark, maybe a little light would help...even just one itty-bitty candle would do wonders, ya know? But it seems that once you're out of sight...you're out of mind and all you got is you.
Just seems like a load of shit though...I know that I'm not easily motivated, but even the smallest nudge would get me going. But have i gotten that little bump on the rump...oh, no-no-no-no-no! In fact I've gotten quite a few smacks on the hands, "why haven't you done anything yet", "when are you going to do anything", "now what, eh"...and on, and on, and on. I can't take it...and it's not doing me any good! Sure I'll look into things every once in a while...but i have no idea what I'm looking for, or even at! It's like looking for the Holy Grail...when ya don't even know what the hell it is!....(oh, it a cup! fancy that...who would have guessed?...erm, now what?).
I start looking left but then it's, "oh they're not accredited!"...then i look right, "oh, they're a little expensive aren't they?"...then all of a sudden, "why did you stop looking into the first places?". Gee-bus!!!...and now I got these schools callin' me...(I know its not really them...I checked some box on some web site with out reading the whole thing [I do that a lot, I just make sure I'm not signing over my soul]...and it's just there auto dialer ringin' me through)...but to hear how they go after each other...damn! It's worse than politicians! If they're callin' me to get my money and teach me a thing or two...I'm all for it, but i just hate it when they dis the other guys. That is not the way to get my vote...ya talk about what you do, make some positive comparisons like, "we have more detailed classes to help you learn what you want better" not, "there classes suck and ours are cool"...which is basically what they say.
I don't know anymore...there are just too many factors that I would like to sift through, but i don't have time for. I'm afraid that I might make a quick move and fall into something I don't want to be part of. I just want to fined a place (or places) that will get me the starter stuff out of the way for cheap, and the area of interest done in a way that I'll actually remember it afterwards. ...and I don't want to really move from where I am, I like it here too much! Well that seems to be my little nub of life at the moment...till next time, Peace!

Up To Now

Well, well, well...it's been quite awhile, but HEY! I'm still alive, that counts for something, eh? Well, even so there's not much to talk about just catch-up stuff since the last post, other than that it's been quite bland, unexciting, disappointing, and most of all boring! So, the same old, same old. So last time i kinda lashed out, well it's expected in the kinda life I live and every now and then I just have to let lose somehow, but it can be assured that I did not do anything rash. I can keep my cool under pressure of every intensity, but let's stop that and get the ball rolling.

Let me just say that this year, the school year that is, was a complete waste of time. For some bizarre reason i thought i could make it through another year at Northside, complete my supper senior year there and blow that Popsicle stand. Oh, FUCK NO...as expected I blew the first half right out of the watter, but some how i got away with two half credits. But even with that I said, 'Fuck this', and got myself out of there...but do not fret, i set myself up at Truman. Gona push myself through this program and, get this...I'm still going to get a Northside diploma, don't know how but I'm not going around asking questions. So, yeah...I'll be out of there by June, probably take a little time off then...WORK, all day and night till I fall over!

So now going back a little bit, finally went to my first Furry Convention...well it was nice, had a few people there that I knew that made it what it was, and again I thank them for that. But all around, I truly dig it all and hopefully I'll be heading to many, many more. In other news, I've been finding more and more furry friends...though I only see them every now and then, I always have a great time! Every now and then things get exciting, and that's always good...but it's always nice just to be around 'em, they just re-energizes me and I LOVE IT!

And so, in the time to come, I'll be kicking myself into gear about the whole school thing...if I'm going to be doing anything anytime soon I need to get that diploma. After that, for the summer at least, I'm gona be working my ass off with my brother pulling in as much scratch as we can. When Autumn comes, who knows...I might still be in Chi-Town working or hittin' up the College scene, or moving out to Ohio with my bro-ham doing the College thing. Or even moving out to West Virginia to bunk with my mate, figure things out there...school?..work?..who knows?

Well that's what be with me, Up To Now! I'll catch you all on the flip side,
Peace Out! I/O

B.

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So I Was Doin' This Thing

Ok, so I've been getting a little built up over the past week or so, about what I'm not sure but i could feel it. there have been many times that i felt like bursting out with the fury of my many sides, but i always seem to gain control in time. But i always wondered what would happen if i just lost it one day, completely and utterly lost it and after the wake of blood shed not remember a single thing...would i regret the horrible things that i would soon learn after all the years of shit I've had to deal with. it's not all just going away, it's up there...building, plotting, waiting for the opportune moment to strike, and i have little to no control when it happens! ya know how much that would blow, not just for me but for the dozens dead that my alter egos have unfortunately wreak havoc on!! oh yeah, now you all pay attention! now you're all saying, 'yeah know, he might have some problems!'...or are you just going to stand there with your moth open till i slice your fucking head off!?! well your bad!! Peace Out! I/O