Another Step Complete

Well, got another brick in the wall secured in place...finally got the High School Diploma knocked out of the way, and it only took me five years to do it. (gerf) >..< Can't complain, but now it's the hard part...what now? No ones talked about it, well I mean there have been people who've given me a pitch...and I've heard them all, but what about em? This place, that place...who's accredited where...cost, programs. Maybe if I knew what i was doing, then I could worry about all that...but see, no ones ever helped in that area. I've got an idea, but I have no clue where to search or what program I need to do what I want to do. That's why I don't feel like doing anything in that area, I hate stabbing in the dark, maybe a little light would help...even just one itty-bitty candle would do wonders, ya know? But it seems that once you're out of sight...you're out of mind and all you got is you.
Just seems like a load of shit though...I know that I'm not easily motivated, but even the smallest nudge would get me going. But have i gotten that little bump on the rump...oh, no-no-no-no-no! In fact I've gotten quite a few smacks on the hands, "why haven't you done anything yet", "when are you going to do anything", "now what, eh"...and on, and on, and on. I can't take it...and it's not doing me any good! Sure I'll look into things every once in a while...but i have no idea what I'm looking for, or even at! It's like looking for the Holy Grail...when ya don't even know what the hell it is!....(oh, it a cup! fancy that...who would have guessed?...erm, now what?).
I start looking left but then it's, "oh they're not accredited!"...then i look right, "oh, they're a little expensive aren't they?"...then all of a sudden, "why did you stop looking into the first places?". Gee-bus!!!...and now I got these schools callin' me...(I know its not really them...I checked some box on some web site with out reading the whole thing [I do that a lot, I just make sure I'm not signing over my soul]...and it's just there auto dialer ringin' me through)...but to hear how they go after each other...damn! It's worse than politicians! If they're callin' me to get my money and teach me a thing or two...I'm all for it, but i just hate it when they dis the other guys. That is not the way to get my vote...ya talk about what you do, make some positive comparisons like, "we have more detailed classes to help you learn what you want better" not, "there classes suck and ours are cool"...which is basically what they say.
I don't know anymore...there are just too many factors that I would like to sift through, but i don't have time for. I'm afraid that I might make a quick move and fall into something I don't want to be part of. I just want to fined a place (or places) that will get me the starter stuff out of the way for cheap, and the area of interest done in a way that I'll actually remember it afterwards. ...and I don't want to really move from where I am, I like it here too much! Well that seems to be my little nub of life at the moment...till next time, Peace!